Confrontations in the face doesn't work either. Now you really can't blame me for questioning your supposed "leadership" that's non-existent.

I thought with slightly lesser tutorials and projects in the first week, i could enjoy my weekends.
Turns out i more or less procrastinated 2days away and only finishing up the other Econs tutorial.
The more i do Econs, the more i realise i don't understand the concept that well and the dumber i feel.
I wouldn't be this pessimistic if not that i couldn't even read those simple Jap words as well.
So now, i'm not really catching up with Macroecons, my Jap's not getting anywhere, and i'm not improving my Astro skills.
Owned. (Y)
What makes me feel disgusted is that i actually know i'm those kind of idiot that would forget every single thing i learnt if i don't recap 24/7, and i still chose to NOT recap 25/8.
When can i ever kick this laziness of mine ?

Anyways, was watching "I am Legend" on Channel5. Yes, i know that's like a freaking long-ago show but i couldn't find the guts to watch it in theatres with the stupid sound system and i doubt my friends would agree to it as well.
But i must say that watching on the tv was equally nerve-wrecking. ZZ.
Nonetheless, a very intriguing movie. “发人思想” is all i can say.
I'm not sure if that's how you write the chinese words. Can't help it, my England and China damn cui now.

& i got so bored i continued watching the news without changing to the Chinese channels. Seriously, the shows are getting so boring i literally changed my 16years of habit of watching Mandarin dramas to English ones.
Okay that wasn't what i was going to say. Dammit, stop sidetracking me. Must be my right and left brain trying to co-exist again as usual.
ANYWAYS, apparently trips to countries like Europe needs an estimate of 8k. Okay, am i too poor or is it that the people are too rich they can actually afford that amount. ZZ.
I'm not even gonna travel to the other side of the planet but i doubt 2k can even suffice.
Brings me back to reality. I wonder if i should dream or should i not at times.
It's good to have a dream. But it feels very impractical when i know obviously, it's not happening anytime soon.
With people holding stuffs like iPhones, BB, DSLRs, semi-pros, and whole bunch of luxury goods rather than necessities, can you not wish you weren't rich yourself ?
Yes i am this practical and no i don't have the means to get myself rich at this age unless i marry Jonghyun.

I just realised why i feel more comfortable with my secondary school friends.
Because even when they're rich, they jio you to eat yong tau foo everyday instead of sushi.
Because they're the ones doing household chores with me, instead of being wait upon by their maids.
Because no matter how smart they are, their hearts are still that innocent you never include "backstabbing" into your dictionary.
Because they're so kind-hearted that they really go all the way out though they keep complaining how much trouble you've caused them.
Because they don't compare, although they keep talking about studies unless you ask them to shut up.
Because they don't gossip and think that it's weird to NOT have a boyfriend.
Because i am just myself, without holding back anything.

Even with that list of reasons, i don't hold onto it as much as i did last time.
I'm not sure if that's something good or not.
Perhaps i really did let go and learn to move on myself.

Confrontations in the face doesn't work either. Now you really can't blame me for questioning your supposed "leadership" that's non-existent.

I thought with slightly lesser tutorials and projects in the first week, i could enjoy my weekends.
Turns out i more or less procrastinated 2days away and only finishing up the other Econs tutorial.
The more i do Econs, the more i realise i don't understand the concept that well and the dumber i feel.
I wouldn't be this pessimistic if not that i couldn't even read those simple Jap words as well.
So now, i'm not really catching up with Macroecons, my Jap's not getting anywhere, and i'm not improving my Astro skills.
Owned. (Y)
What makes me feel disgusted is that i actually know i'm those kind of idiot that would forget every single thing i learnt if i don't recap 24/7, and i still chose to NOT recap 25/8.
When can i ever kick this laziness of mine ?

Anyways, was watching "I am Legend" on Channel5. Yes, i know that's like a freaking long-ago show but i couldn't find the guts to watch it in theatres with the stupid sound system and i doubt my friends would agree to it as well.
But i must say that watching on the tv was equally nerve-wrecking. ZZ.
Nonetheless, a very intriguing movie. “发人思想” is all i can say.
I'm not sure if that's how you write the chinese words. Can't help it, my England and China damn cui now.

& i got so bored i continued watching the news without changing to the Chinese channels. Seriously, the shows are getting so boring i literally changed my 16years of habit of watching Mandarin dramas to English ones.
Okay that wasn't what i was going to say. Dammit, stop sidetracking me. Must be my right and left brain trying to co-exist again as usual.
ANYWAYS, apparently trips to countries like Europe needs an estimate of 8k. Okay, am i too poor or is it that the people are too rich they can actually afford that amount. ZZ.
I'm not even gonna travel to the other side of the planet but i doubt 2k can even suffice.
Brings me back to reality. I wonder if i should dream or should i not at times.
It's good to have a dream. But it feels very impractical when i know obviously, it's not happening anytime soon.
With people holding stuffs like iPhones, BB, DSLRs, semi-pros, and whole bunch of luxury goods rather than necessities, can you not wish you weren't rich yourself ?
Yes i am this practical and no i don't have the means to get myself rich at this age unless i marry Jonghyun.

I just realised why i feel more comfortable with my secondary school friends.
Because even when they're rich, they jio you to eat yong tau foo everyday instead of sushi.
Because they're the ones doing household chores with me, instead of being wait upon by their maids.
Because no matter how smart they are, their hearts are still that innocent you never include "backstabbing" into your dictionary.
Because they're so kind-hearted that they really go all the way out though they keep complaining how much trouble you've caused them.
Because they don't compare, although they keep talking about studies unless you ask them to shut up.
Because they don't gossip and think that it's weird to NOT have a boyfriend.
Because i am just myself, without holding back anything.

Even with that list of reasons, i don't hold onto it as much as i did last time.
I'm not sure if that's something good or not.
Perhaps i really did let go and learn to move on myself.

♥ CHERYL - (:
I'm an authentic Earthling.
& that's all about me. (;