I think i'm getting STM, i can't seem to remember what i wanted to blog about.
Or perhaps because there were too many things to mention i just forgot everything at once.
(Y)
So it's kayoobi already and all i want to do is sit on my bed and sulk all the way till getsooyobi.
Stupid thought ? I don't think so, since i'm trying to brace myself for what's coming up.
Once school starts, there'll be so many things to do again.
1. Buying textbooks. Fml, asking me to walk to FC5 with the freaking heavy laptop.
2. Looking at fucked-up faces that makes me feel constipated the entire day.
3. Facing tutorials and PROJECTS.
4. Mainly facing the laptop since there's ITB & i'm totally dreading it.
5. Rush home straight after school - Be a total NERD.
6. More or less, be an extra. 半隐形人 ~

I've been worrying since exams ended.
Worrying that my results might not be good, that my efforts weren't enough.
Worrying that i've to repeat the module. Worrying about being few paces slower than others.
Worrying that start of school would be bad. Worrying that things didn't change and i'm gonna use the F word all over again.
Worrying that i can't maintain the standard of my results.
Worrying that i can't get into university like the others.
Worrying about GEM. Worrying about whether i would be in the same class as the others and whether the people in the class is nice.
Worrying that in the new semester, i wouldn't be able to catch up.
Just, worrying.
I'm surprised i don't have a head full of white hair.

Tired about thinking so much.
But somehow, it's not like i can stop. Life just goes on even without me moving on.
...
她说她很羡慕我能随着周边的事物而改变。
但她不知道我佩服她那 “逆风而不倒” 的精神。

My wish for this semester ?
That i'll be even more independent than before.

I think i'm getting STM, i can't seem to remember what i wanted to blog about.
Or perhaps because there were too many things to mention i just forgot everything at once.
(Y)
So it's kayoobi already and all i want to do is sit on my bed and sulk all the way till getsooyobi.
Stupid thought ? I don't think so, since i'm trying to brace myself for what's coming up.
Once school starts, there'll be so many things to do again.
1. Buying textbooks. Fml, asking me to walk to FC5 with the freaking heavy laptop.
2. Looking at fucked-up faces that makes me feel constipated the entire day.
3. Facing tutorials and PROJECTS.
4. Mainly facing the laptop since there's ITB & i'm totally dreading it.
5. Rush home straight after school - Be a total NERD.
6. More or less, be an extra. 半隐形人 ~

I've been worrying since exams ended.
Worrying that my results might not be good, that my efforts weren't enough.
Worrying that i've to repeat the module. Worrying about being few paces slower than others.
Worrying that start of school would be bad. Worrying that things didn't change and i'm gonna use the F word all over again.
Worrying that i can't maintain the standard of my results.
Worrying that i can't get into university like the others.
Worrying about GEM. Worrying about whether i would be in the same class as the others and whether the people in the class is nice.
Worrying that in the new semester, i wouldn't be able to catch up.
Just, worrying.
I'm surprised i don't have a head full of white hair.

Tired about thinking so much.
But somehow, it's not like i can stop. Life just goes on even without me moving on.
...
她说她很羡慕我能随着周边的事物而改变。
但她不知道我佩服她那 “逆风而不倒” 的精神。

My wish for this semester ?
That i'll be even more independent than before.

♥ CHERYL - (:
I'm an authentic Earthling.
& that's all about me. (;