Yah, i've decided to "open up" this blog again.
After much thought, i remembered that blogs were originally meant for people to read, not for your own privacy or anything.
If you even need privacy at all, you'd be writing all these things in a diary or something, not on a blog where anybody can access it, even if you may have locked it up.
I've had enough of days where i have to hide what i feel from people i meet everyday.
I don't recall being such a coward.
So yah. :D

Anyways, life's been more or less calm these days.
Very routined, regular, and boring.
Although it might seem that things are taking a turn for the better, in actual fact, everything's just fragile.
It feels like, everything i see is fake, an illusion.
And this comes back to my point of whining why i didn't cherish days in secondary 3 and 4.
I guess all of us are still holding onto memories from those days.
If you gave it much consideration, you would have realised that actually, we all just can't let go.
Or more of, unwilling to let go.
We constantly compare the days we had in secondary school, with poly life, and we see all the flaws now.
These imperfections makes us cling onto those memories even more, and ends up, we can't open our hearts to this new stage of our lives.
Sadly, i'm also struggling to break out, and accept things as it is now. And sad to say again, i'm not very good at it.
Seeing how happy some of my friends are in their classes, and looking at mine..
It's like heaven and earth of a difference.
If i saw this coming, i'd rather send myself to the grave by entering JC than to poly.

现在后悔也没用。
眼前的一切，都是事实。想逃避，便是懦弱。
既然不想成懦弱之人，那就面对现实吧!
可这谈何容易呢?

My life's in a mess now.
Or was it because i was too ignorant last time, that's why my life was much better previously..?
Man, ignorance IS bliss.
身在福中，不知福。
Ahwell. -.-

The weather today makes it easier to emo.
Plus the song i'm listening to.. Is freaking emo. LOLs !
The only good thing about emo-ing is that, you actually think more, and learn more things.
For example, you can sit there, stare out the window, listening to music, and start questioning what your life is about.
And all the thoughts just comes in.
You'll be surprised to find out that you can actually find yourself in the midst of all these thinking.
So maybe, it's not such a bad thing.
To me, emo-ing is nice and peaceful in a way. But in another way, it uses a lot of my energy, no idea why. Probably because i've been thinking non-stop, and my brain juice is being used more than when i'm taking Olevels. HAHAAs.

I wish i can roam the world now.
Why am i stuck here, having to study as much as possible, when we might have the probability of dying in 2012 ?
To add up, i'm competing with freaking competitive and kiasu students. FML, i hate competitions. Can't you guys just keep a low-profile ?
Smart also don't have to show off what. Smart, so what ? Next time go out no EQ, also die. Irritating.
If i mastered the skill of teleportation, i'll most probably teleport to some mountainous areas in China first.
Shocking right ? From me.
I'm not a big fan of China, but somehow, their natural sights makes me feel peaceful. If only i could sit at the top of the mountain and look down at the world, that'd be nice. :D
HEHEE, at least, DIB trains me so that i can go flying around everywhere in the future.

I gave up doing Stats tutorial. Just not in the mood.
Damn, the weather's so nice i should be sleeping. But instead, i decided to torture my cute little brain by thinking about so many stuffs and emo.

There's quite a lot of things i want to blog about. LOLs, sorry lah, i know i haven't been blogging much lately. That's why i'm giving you guys a bigger idea of what i'm doing these days and how sucky life has been..
.....
I never believed tragedies might happen, all thanks to dramas exaggerating them big time.
Watching those shows, you'd be laughing because it just gets too ridiculous and coincidental sometimes.
So coincidental that it's very fake.
Today ? I believe it.
But either way, i still hate dramas. -.-
Some people, like me, might be ignorant as to their surroundings.
They don't know things are constantly happening, and they never came to think that : Erh, this really does happen.
No, because they never experienced, or were never in contact with people who had experienced it.
I guess i can say that i've finally stepped out of my small safe circle. Yah, that's like a bad thing, but i got to see the fragile side of life.
So many things happened, so many stories, all so sad.
But there's still nothing we can do.
New insight yesterday. Reminds me of the time i saw a motorcycle skid off track and the motorist rolled onto the road.
Thank god there wasn't any blood, but i guess the person must be hurting. Didn't get to see what happened because i had to go to school.
Fragility of life ; We all die, just that you don't know when you're gonna be dead.
Since there are so many uncertainties in "tomorrow", why can't people live without regrets, every single day, and cherish life ?
Sometimes i feel like slapping people that keeps telling me they want to die, or go out and kena car bang.
It's not easy to be reincarnated as a human, and there they are, trying to kill themselves. -.-"
Not forgetting people that create so much grudges and holds hatred everyday.
Can't they just cherish people around them ? It's so freaking childish because you never know, the next day, they might leave you, and you can blame yourself for never being able to patch up with them, ever again.

Sad life, right.
Nonetheless, all these are worth it.
To be alive, is something so great, every other things are just negligible.
It all just depends on how you choose to lead it. Like i always said, live life like there's no tomorrow. :D
But that's kinda hard, i must agree, given the restrictions as a student.
At the very least, i hope i'll maintain a good relationship with my friends, family, cherish everyday, work hard and have no regrets.

SO CHIM RIGHT.
Wah, i read this whole chunk of thing i'm also finding it a little hard to digest. HAHAAs.
Philosophical. I should just drop out of school and start giving big and noble theories like Confucious. :P

Just some random and shocking news i found out recently.
My dad sends "I love you" texts to my mum ! Omfg lah, so freaking sweet can. >.<
I didn't expect my dad to do this kind of thing since he was never the romantic guy. Never.
He said he felt sad when he saw my mum walk to work, from our house, so he decided to send her a message.
So jealous lah. Hahas. But it's nice to know they're on really good terms. I guess i don't have to worry about them for now.
Well, everything would have been perfect, but my mum isn't educated, so she can't read "I love you", and ended up calling my dad to ask what he sent her. LOLOLOL !
Really cute parents i have. :D
I hope my husband would do that, even when we reach 50years old. HAHAA ! xD

Alright, that's about all. I guess this big stack of words is enough to sustain the blog for awhile longer.
(;

& i'll let fate decide everything .
For now, i'm just going to 走一步，看一步.
:)

fullstop.

Yah, i've decided to "open up" this blog again.
After much thought, i remembered that blogs were originally meant for people to read, not for your own privacy or anything.
If you even need privacy at all, you'd be writing all these things in a diary or something, not on a blog where anybody can access it, even if you may have locked it up.
I've had enough of days where i have to hide what i feel from people i meet everyday.
I don't recall being such a coward.
So yah. :D

Anyways, life's been more or less calm these days.
Very routined, regular, and boring.
Although it might seem that things are taking a turn for the better, in actual fact, everything's just fragile.
It feels like, everything i see is fake, an illusion.
And this comes back to my point of whining why i didn't cherish days in secondary 3 and 4.
I guess all of us are still holding onto memories from those days.
If you gave it much consideration, you would have realised that actually, we all just can't let go.
Or more of, unwilling to let go.
We constantly compare the days we had in secondary school, with poly life, and we see all the flaws now.
These imperfections makes us cling onto those memories even more, and ends up, we can't open our hearts to this new stage of our lives.
Sadly, i'm also struggling to break out, and accept things as it is now. And sad to say again, i'm not very good at it.
Seeing how happy some of my friends are in their classes, and looking at mine..
It's like heaven and earth of a difference.
If i saw this coming, i'd rather send myself to the grave by entering JC than to poly.

现在后悔也没用。
眼前的一切，都是事实。想逃避，便是懦弱。
既然不想成懦弱之人，那就面对现实吧!
可这谈何容易呢?

My life's in a mess now.
Or was it because i was too ignorant last time, that's why my life was much better previously..?
Man, ignorance IS bliss.
身在福中，不知福。
Ahwell. -.-

The weather today makes it easier to emo.
Plus the song i'm listening to.. Is freaking emo. LOLs !
The only good thing about emo-ing is that, you actually think more, and learn more things.
For example, you can sit there, stare out the window, listening to music, and start questioning what your life is about.
And all the thoughts just comes in.
You'll be surprised to find out that you can actually find yourself in the midst of all these thinking.
So maybe, it's not such a bad thing.
To me, emo-ing is nice and peaceful in a way. But in another way, it uses a lot of my energy, no idea why. Probably because i've been thinking non-stop, and my brain juice is being used more than when i'm taking Olevels. HAHAAs.

I wish i can roam the world now.
Why am i stuck here, having to study as much as possible, when we might have the probability of dying in 2012 ?
To add up, i'm competing with freaking competitive and kiasu students. FML, i hate competitions. Can't you guys just keep a low-profile ?
Smart also don't have to show off what. Smart, so what ? Next time go out no EQ, also die. Irritating.
If i mastered the skill of teleportation, i'll most probably teleport to some mountainous areas in China first.
Shocking right ? From me.
I'm not a big fan of China, but somehow, their natural sights makes me feel peaceful. If only i could sit at the top of the mountain and look down at the world, that'd be nice. :D
HEHEE, at least, DIB trains me so that i can go flying around everywhere in the future.

I gave up doing Stats tutorial. Just not in the mood.
Damn, the weather's so nice i should be sleeping. But instead, i decided to torture my cute little brain by thinking about so many stuffs and emo.

There's quite a lot of things i want to blog about. LOLs, sorry lah, i know i haven't been blogging much lately. That's why i'm giving you guys a bigger idea of what i'm doing these days and how sucky life has been..
.....
I never believed tragedies might happen, all thanks to dramas exaggerating them big time.
Watching those shows, you'd be laughing because it just gets too ridiculous and coincidental sometimes.
So coincidental that it's very fake.
Today ? I believe it.
But either way, i still hate dramas. -.-
Some people, like me, might be ignorant as to their surroundings.
They don't know things are constantly happening, and they never came to think that : Erh, this really does happen.
No, because they never experienced, or were never in contact with people who had experienced it.
I guess i can say that i've finally stepped out of my small safe circle. Yah, that's like a bad thing, but i got to see the fragile side of life.
So many things happened, so many stories, all so sad.
But there's still nothing we can do.
New insight yesterday. Reminds me of the time i saw a motorcycle skid off track and the motorist rolled onto the road.
Thank god there wasn't any blood, but i guess the person must be hurting. Didn't get to see what happened because i had to go to school.
Fragility of life ; We all die, just that you don't know when you're gonna be dead.
Since there are so many uncertainties in "tomorrow", why can't people live without regrets, every single day, and cherish life ?
Sometimes i feel like slapping people that keeps telling me they want to die, or go out and kena car bang.
It's not easy to be reincarnated as a human, and there they are, trying to kill themselves. -.-"
Not forgetting people that create so much grudges and holds hatred everyday.
Can't they just cherish people around them ? It's so freaking childish because you never know, the next day, they might leave you, and you can blame yourself for never being able to patch up with them, ever again.

Sad life, right.
Nonetheless, all these are worth it.
To be alive, is something so great, every other things are just negligible.
It all just depends on how you choose to lead it. Like i always said, live life like there's no tomorrow. :D
But that's kinda hard, i must agree, given the restrictions as a student.
At the very least, i hope i'll maintain a good relationship with my friends, family, cherish everyday, work hard and have no regrets.

SO CHIM RIGHT.
Wah, i read this whole chunk of thing i'm also finding it a little hard to digest. HAHAAs.
Philosophical. I should just drop out of school and start giving big and noble theories like Confucious. :P

Just some random and shocking news i found out recently.
My dad sends "I love you" texts to my mum ! Omfg lah, so freaking sweet can. >.<
I didn't expect my dad to do this kind of thing since he was never the romantic guy. Never.
He said he felt sad when he saw my mum walk to work, from our house, so he decided to send her a message.
So jealous lah. Hahas. But it's nice to know they're on really good terms. I guess i don't have to worry about them for now.
Well, everything would have been perfect, but my mum isn't educated, so she can't read "I love you", and ended up calling my dad to ask what he sent her. LOLOLOL !
Really cute parents i have. :D
I hope my husband would do that, even when we reach 50years old. HAHAA ! xD

Alright, that's about all. I guess this big stack of words is enough to sustain the blog for awhile longer.
(;

& i'll let fate decide everything .
For now, i'm just going to 走一步，看一步.
:)

fullstop.

♥ CHERYL - (:
I'm an authentic Earthling.
& that's all about me. (;